It has been 1 month since I have been home. 1 month 1 day since I left a place I used to call home. The dream that was my semester at Harlaxton has ended. That chapter of this book is over, but there are many more chapters left to be written.
Yes, I feel sad that it’s over. I am extremely grateful that it ever even happened! Although I may not be living in a castle in the English countryside, I still have the friendships and memories that I made there. And those friendships and memories will live forever.
Every time certain songs come on that remind me of Harlaxton, I get a feeling. Every time I see posts on social media about the semester, every time hear words or phrases that marked and represented my time abroad, and many more triggers that I sense, I get a feeling. A feeling of happiness and nostalgia, but also a feeling of sadness that it is over. A reminder that I will never get to relive that dream. I try not to think about it too much. I try to keep myself busy and I am doing a great job at that. But now I have come to a realize that when I do get filled with emotion, it only strengthens and reinforces my memories and time abroad.
I lived the best 4 months of my life at Harlaxton. I’m not saying I enjoyed 100% of the entire semester, but I got really close! Harlaxton has changed my life. It has changed the way I see the world, it has given me different perspective, it has opened doors for me that I never even knew were there. I have grown. I have changed.
Being home now is great. I am surrounded by people who love me! Why should I be sad? I am back with my friends and back to the great virtues Texas, and the United States, has to offer! I’m so happy I get to eat all this good food I missed so much! Being home isn’t a bad thing.
Studying abroad changed my life, and I think it should be something EVERYONE does. Unfortunately, that’s not likely.
If you’re reading this, thank you. Thanks for caring enough to read about how I feel. I hope you enjoyed my blog! I hope it inspired you to travel and step outside of your comfort zone. Unfortunately, this is the end of this blog.
Please feel free to talk to me about this semester or if you want to study abroad too!
A Friend,
Afsar